hey, so I ended up silly'ly writing this letter into nowhere, beaucse things after our 1.5 night together seem off to me.
I miss having you as a friend, miss inviting you places, miss texting bullshit. I miss our best-on-the-internet meme channel and our silly jokes.
The problem here is, that I know how to bring it all back for the most part - it is to tell you that things meant nothing, to start acting back the way you do - talking about your girls, and telling you about my boys.
Easy.
The complicated problem is - you were right. You were right I wanted more, and I wasn't being fully honest. Did I think this through deeply? No. I went after being caught up in things. Do. I want more? I do. I like you, man. I like you in a sick way I like people - when I see their hypothetical potential, their warmth, and care, that is not specifically displayed, but rather lingers, I seem to set on an everlasting journey of uncovering it, every time making it fully fade into non-existence along with the owner of the aforementioned traits.
Soo, what is there for me to do? Is there to assume that if you haven't made any moves, suspecting how I feel, you really are not into the idea of this (haha, as you've already told me openly, well...), to therefore quit this topic for now, distance, ignore, move on, and then, once completed, to get back on track talking bullshit, pretending it never happened and discussing your girls and my boys? Would this be honest? Absolutely not. Would this be a classic move of mine? Pretty much yes. Will we stick to the plan? Sadly.